I'm happy if he happy

I don't know what should I do, I don't know how my feeling, I want he, n I love her but I don't want close with her, because, her story about someone else make me hurt, she don't know about my feeling she think I don't want him n I don't love him, that is WRONG, why her act show me like he don't care about me n he keep enjoy with her act that get me hurt n hate her. but altough like that, I don't want lose her I just want make her smile out of her face.

Arghhhhhh WHAT SHOULD I DO !!!

sometimes he show me about her feeling to me, that she like love me care about me but that its maybe just a one day, even just a few minutes, after that
I feel she's gone from me, I don't know how her way thinking about me from first time I meet him I don't know how her way thinking about someone like me he make me very confused. maybe he just a thing unreachable for my heart n maybe he just my heart's shadow. he there for me, if i don't anymore thinking about her, but when I very want thinking about her, n I want beside her, he go off hand from me huhhh it very grievous.
At this time, no matter what, I don't know what should I do, I just want with her although her act get me hurt,

"I'm happy if he happy"

i'm very happy if I get close with her, I feel like she is mine but the real doesn't like that, huhh that is just a fool hallucination haha, why I can think like that, why i'm like this again... why I couldn't as formerly. every I with her, i'm glad always see her smile, but sometimes if he tell about her Ex, I just like want to say, that "I TIRED TO HEAR IT!!!" he don't know how become like me, i'm bored becoming FALSEHOOD. arghhhh I very want to say i'm jealous if her act like that n tell about another to me huhh but I can't, i'm afraid if I like that he don't want be with me again.., argghhh it foolish, all its wouldn't change like my hope. because just I can't show to her.
Loser become me now...



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